Feeling lost and out of control
Written 5/6/2024.
You ever have one of those days where you feel like you aren’t in control of what’s going on in your life?
That was me today.
Got up, had a nice run this morning and read awhile.
Since 8 am it was downhill.
I went to the office as it has a working printer/scanner (I never got around to disassembling my printer at home – it has a little piece of paper lodged around the fuser which means that I have to take half of it apart to get at it).
I thought the State of the City lunch was today, so I dressed the part, went to the hotel where it was being held and no one was there. I looked it up and it’s Wednesday.
Of course I had 2 other meetings scheduled during this time, so I put my Executive Assistant on changing those appointments.
I started ruminating on my accounting issues. I really need to switch accountants and just need to walk two doors down to see whether they’d take me on.
The bills from Iceland are high, but not as high as I had expected. It still means that I will not take money out of the business as usual for this month in order for there to be enough money to pay those bills.
We finished paying the recruiter, so that’s $3750/mo less I have to shell out. My net cash flow should handle everything, but as I’ve said before, bills keep popping up which is extremely frustrating.
I will get this venture off the ground and yes, some of the funding I’m pulling from my personal reserves. I don’t have a choice. Rather, the choice is to give up or pull from reserves, so there isn’t a choice.
You may be asking yourself whether this is risky and why are I am putting all my extra funds and reserve funds into this?
The short answer is that I have to do it. Even if it fails utterly, I have no choice. Only a true entrepreneur will understand and there are so few of us in reality.
Eventually you (the reader) will be asked whether you want to participate in this journey, whether it’s subscribing to my future podcast or being one of the charter members of my group.
This community is sooo needed and I’m going to help bring it to men.
Please say a prayer for this passion project.